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♥Sunday, November 08, 2009

Listening to: MGMT- Time to Pretend

I love this song! It's one of those anthems that surmise what being young is all about- discovery, big dreams, and a blatant refusal to commit to any social norms.

Of cos that's not what the song is really about. It's some satire on the rocknroll industry and how you have to wear a mask to survive blah blah black sheep.

'This is our decision, to live fast and die young.
We've got our decision, so let's have some fun.'

I'm turning 21 le....
Not exactly VERY excited.

Ever since I came back to school, I'm doing my verrrrryyyy best to enjoy myself and learn as much as possible from everybody.

I wanna make the most out of these 2 years, before it's back to the rat race. Well, that's if I dont end up in production and do corporate again (i prayyyyy not).

Going to school is like celebrating my birthday every day.
It's that wonderful feeling where you're really excited for the day to come, and each lesson you learn is a present.

But anyway, speaking about presents, since my birthday is coming..... here's my wishlist (alamak everybody has one!)

1) That fucking chio pair of Onitsuka Tiger I found in that limited edition shop in Peninsula plaza, level 2. I went with Cal and Kev in Oct and fell in love with it immediately lor. uwahhhhh i'm superrrrr lusting for it. pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee get me that~~~~ T_T the photo's even up on FB. =D

2) A solid set of headphones. Solid enough to withstand how I er... treat things. (amazing how i never lose my stuff but end up destroying them =/)

3) Solid bag/s. Me needs good going-out bag/s. Black and gold is gooood =D

4) I would reallyyy love to go out and do fun stuff with the people I love. Like... like... picnics and flying kites, Megazip, bowling, night cycling, ice skating, go beach, drinks, more drinks, sit in prata shop and la teh till 4am...

In fact, my birthday would be really perfect if i could just see all my friends again, and tell them how much i love them.

Bye bye!

Say KYAHHHHHHH~

♥Friday, October 09, 2009

Listening to: MGMT- Time to Pretend

Good times for a change.
See, the luck I've had, can make a good man turn bad.

So please please please...
Let me get what I want this time.

Haven't had a dream in a long time.
See, the life I've had can make a good man bad

So for once in my life, let me get what I want.
Lord knows, it would be the first time.

Eh, quick ask me what i want leh lol.

Say KYAHHHHHHH~

♥Saturday, September 19, 2009

Listening to: Ayumi Hamasaki- Mirrocle World

Wa, damn long never blog le! Ive been having too much fun!

Yep, it's been a while since i admitted that enjoying life alot. I love where i am now, the people i'm with, and the stuff that i'm doing. =D

I love Egg Story!!!!! =DDDD

I love my two jie-jies at school- Pris and Dione

2 of my bros- Jonas and Calvin and many many more....

we came together for Shanique's 34th bday. damn fun. cos i was half drunk huh. and i couldnt keep away from the bottle :x

but i may have missed out some stuff cos i only came at like... 7.30 =(

happy bday big sis! =D i baked banana and choc chip 'muffins' with nutella on top. I think they were good, cos when i wanted to grab one they were all gone! XD

I really wished Alicia and Shanique are in the same class as me. Well, i do respect Alicia alot, for being a vvv strong young mom =D

Alvin and Daniel. lol Alvin shaking up the 'fizzzzz' (like i said, nobody could keep away from the bottle). Heh I want Daniel to adopt me as his kid lololol.

Kevin stole my drink =(

Bun (guy in Gap) proclaimed me to be his new best friend, just cos i helped him do his mini essay lol. drunkardddd. oh... and guy beside me is Hing. great person to hang on to (very literally) =))

Like I said.... super bonding session~

after the bbq 5 of us went to cycle. all the way from ECP to suntec then to clarke quay.

Pris~

Kev~

Jonas~ (who is looking for a get fit kaki) the amazing drama/asshole/very nice guy lol.

and Calvin who refused to be photographed =/

We ran into a group of very drunk Cohort 5 people lol.

along the way we spotted this ah pek who just finished a blow job from a young woman. vvv obvious cos of their position, and how the ah pek flashed us a satisfied smirk while buttoning up his pants.

And then on the way back.... I was making a sharp turn when I didnt see a longkang till the very last min... and crashed into it.

hence the lovely battle scar lol. But hmmm it didnt hurt at all! =D
I was veryyy thankful for all the help i got... i saw a very different side of em tt nite =DDD

Well, obviously i had a blast, and i cant wait for our next play time out. Now we're just trying to finish our assignments =/

But still... I HEART COHORT 6A!

Say KYAHHHHHHH~

♥Saturday, September 05, 2009

Listening to: Nothing

School is good. I like school.

But my digi painting and Maya sucks balls. Need help and lotssss of practice.

The people at school are good. I do like my class and lecturers.

Anyway.... I AM GOING TO JAPAN!!!! WHOOOHOOOOOO~!!!!!

SIGGRAPH 09, YOKOHAMA!!!!!!!!!

A bunch of us in class are gonna backpack for 1 week, and we're going to DISNEYLAND!!!!
AND we're (supposedly) gonna climb Mt. Takao, visit shrines, eat good food, go onsen (YAY), blahblahblah visit non tourist trap places.

VERY EXCITING!

Ive set aside $2k already.
Now Calvin and I are just worried about air fare. Few days back we saw a $600 ANA tix, NOW THE PRICE HAS JUMPED TO $700!!!!! *shocked*

damnit damnit damnit.

Say KYAHHHHHHH~

♥Thursday, August 20, 2009

Listening to: Nothing!

School's started and I'm really honestly psyched bout it. We've got cool lecturers and everybody in class is uniquely talented, and (hopefully) passionate about what we're here for.

So far i've only took 2 lessons (3D- Modelling and Digital Painting), and whoa I know i've got to put in a loooot of work since I'm not formally art trained, whereas many of my classmates came from art backgrounds.

This was jarringly evident during Digital Painting class. Me no know Photoshop. So me first time painting digitally was terrrible. Previously all i've done was play with the most basic of Painter tools. But now, hmm. I knew i was lagging way behind. Turns out my basic handling of the stylus was wrong, and i never managed to finish a picture properly at the end of the lesson.

Well i've come home and did some practising just now. Here's presenting my 1st time (proper) attempt in digital greyscale painting (Speed and accuracy! was what the lect preached). Of course my 'painting' is not accurate in ANY way but at least finished within 20 min. I just 'whack arh!' and here's what my initial blobs of black resulted in:

Do let me know what you think about it. Just dont ask what it is. I dont know lol.

Oo and i found Maya INTERESTING instead of intimidating! =D then the lect had to give me a new nickname.

During 3D class i asked him a qns, and he saw me writing in my Banao cartoon notebook. Then he commented: 'Aww how cute just like my little girl. She likes shiny... pink things. Like Barbie...'

Haaaaa i think my lect colour blind sia my book was yellow.

Then after some time: 'Ok class any questions? No? How bout you? *looks at me* Er... Hello Kitty?'

At the end of the lesson, again lect asked if there were any other questions. To which some smart alec from the back piped up 'Ask Hello Kitty~'

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Tomorrow will be History of Art/Film, Design Fundamentals and Sculpting! Whoopee time to get my hands dirty!!!

psssst. I wonder what anatomy/ life drawing class will be like! We get to sketch nude models!!!

i'm gonna practise ALOT sia =D

Night.

Say KYAHHHHHHH~

♥Thursday, August 13, 2009

Listening to: Dir en grey- Higeki Wa Me Futa Wo Oroshita Yasashiki

Hello. I've got artwork which i think are genuinely funny, which i will post another time.

For today, pls permit me to be self indulgent.

I like comin up with characters based on the people around me. i like pokin fun at their shortcomings, or individual quirks that make each person so dear to me.

that's my way of bein mean, cos it sure does make me feel alot happier bout myself.

then i'll always have one character that represented myself; an alter ego. but i'll feel an intense sadness whenever i breathed life into it. because this character would either be a) the Ann Jie i always wanted, and can never be, or b) what i really think i am.

lookin at the other people i've drawn, i'll suddenly feel extremely isolated.

i think i've forgotten what it's like to talk to my friends. to lay down my ego and reveal everythin that's botherin me to somebody who would listen. not go 'ayah, dont be stupid/dont think nonsense', or 'like that you scared arh!?' it'd be nice to have somebody feel the same tinge of panic.

i think i've even forgotten what it's like to listen to my friends. i liked that feelin, when somebody would come and pour out their heart, and you would sit down with her and just listen. it was comforting, to know that somebody would trust you enough to share her joy or pain. then you could laugh or cry along with her.

i think it's all my fault too- my fault that i cant have anybody to talk to. or have anybody come talk to me.

and i'm honestly terrified of the future.

half the time i wished i was younger, when they were definitely there to protect me. the other half i wished that i was now a grown woman with enough power to protect them.

then i would pray to god that i really dont need any lover or friends, all i needed was them.

i would be so scared that i spend my nights in tears, praying desperately that He wont take away the people that mean most to me, even though its inevitable that such a day will come. because i know ill never be ready for such a day.

i am afraid of being alone.

night.

Say KYAHHHHHHH~

♥Monday, August 10, 2009

Listening to: Dir en grey- Machiavellism

walau, see la, i knew it man! *pouts*

1st one

'Moo moo can I get a tattoo?'
'NO.'
'WHY!?'
'Because you cannot damage your body!'
'And then you still smoke!?'
'I SAY CANNOT.'

hurrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
alamak i know what his main reason la no guy wants to see a tiger/dragon erupting from his gf's clothes on his wedding nite rite???

2nd one!

karliang. onedois3quatro says:
what is the MAIN MAIN MAIN ultimate reason that will shadow all the NOs for you to ink

mad hatter- Spirt of Adventure says:
uhhh
ITS COOOOOOOOOOOOL

karliang. onedois3quatro says:
any better reason

mad hatter- Spirt of Adventure says:
urm
NICE TO SEEEEE.

karliang. onedois3quatro says:
any better reason

karliang. onedois3quatro says:
unless its like a super uber reason like to rmb and honour ur dead dog or something than no point lah

mad hatter- Spirt of Adventure says:
...oh darn. i always tot a dragon/tiger wld b cool

karliang. onedois3quatro says:
imagine u have a flower on ur leg, dn ur kid ask mummy mummy

karliang. onedois3quatro says:
why is there a flower on ur leg and u tell ur kid, cause mummy tot it was cool
what kind of a reason is that!?

HURRRRRR!
darn. got semi permanent one not ah?
late i resort to black marker lol.

nite.

Say KYAHHHHHHH~

♥Wednesday, August 05, 2009

Listening to: Dir en grey- Vinushka

For my 21st birthday...

I think it would be quite cool... if I could get myself inked.

However, doing so would most probably result in my family, boyfriend, and best friends abandoning me.

and i would also end up looking like some underqualified minah.

...... damnit.

Say KYAHHHHHHH~

♥Saturday, August 01, 2009

Listening to: Dir en grey- Jesus Christ R&R

MUSIC RELATED POST!!! as this is my blog i shall write about music i like. if you dont share my likings... well it's time you should =D

Heeheee... I'm in fangirly mode all over again... haiz I've been thinking bout the many years (since sec 2?) spent growing up on music that was (and still is) seldom appreciated by Singaporean females. people say that my choice of music is questionable and unbecoming of a lady. heck, since when have i been lady-like?

'why cant you like more... normal stuff? music is supposed to be soothing' is what my bf usually say. zzz, he never understood. =(

i do not like mainstream music.
but i do like pre 1990 stuff, which is why i listen to gold 90fm.

i do like rock very much.
but i do not like american rock (again, pre 1990 only)
my favourite rock genres are metal, speed/progressive, dance and experimental.

i listen to more bands than artists.
i like foreign music (japanese best duh).
then its very obvious i like Jrock and Jpop alot.
City pop's quite cool actually.

besides that, i do love classical music, and not because i had to study it religiously since 5.

so... i try to steer clear away from mainstream stuff bcos musicians tend to lose their 'power' or 'essence' once they usually do so. you know that musicians hit a 'low' in quality when the music they produce has to be brought down to the lowest common denominator so every tom, dick and harry can appreciate it.

i like it when musicians stay true to themselves, and continue to produce music just because its good, defying fame and billboard hits.

which is why... many years on, i'm very happy that my favourite bands are still so very 'exclusive'.

especially Dir en grey =))))

damn, Diru was the 1st Jrock band (XJapan is the 2nd one!) i listened to. i'm not sure what i should write bout them now.

I hold Diru very close to my fangirly heart bcos to me, they are the epitome of rebellion and individuality. the musical style, the lyrics, the way their stage presence and shock tactics transcend languages and boundaries without the need for a fancy set. their messages are a way of life already.

be still my heart, Kyo is an awesome vocalist. ive been spending the past few nights youtubing, and i still cant find any other singer to match him. he's just so... professional. if he sounds like that on a studio cut, he pushes to beat that live. i love how somebody can sing themself into a trance, transitioning immediately from non-human snarls to operatic vocals, tender soft cooing to ear splitting screams. each song is like a story that builds up in whoops and flings you back down in tears.

nvm that i dont get the lyrics, just by listening to the music- Diru's songs reflect the tragedy and ironies of life.

i like Die too. i love how each member of the band help to tell their 'story' in a song. it's like Hillsong but metal.

i hope Diru never lose their mettle. i hope that Kyo's pledge to never write a song with a happy ending stays true. because it just makes the music so much more... pure.

night =)

Say KYAHHHHHHH~

♥Thursday, July 30, 2009

STILL LISTENIN TO: Dir En grey- Aint Afraid to Die

Picture post! Abit lazy to draw properly...

I miss pecky. She's still havin fun in Msia. Dunno wen she'll be back.
I bet she's stockin up on all stuff organic. wa, she's like some earth goddess tryin to save the planet (and herself).

Organic shampoo, papaya soap, oatmeal, tissue paper... i rmb a long time ago tanny pecky n i were at vivo's giant lookin at.... Kotex. I wonder if pecky can find an organic brand in Msia. Maybe it'll look somethin like this:

Better yet, how bout tampons??

Really cost effective yeah? Hmm, i THINK that's what the female reproductive system looks like. Well, so says the girl who CLAIMED to have used a tampon before when she was 14.

I still rmb. I was hopin to swim, and bought a whole stash. But in the end i just could NOT find the damn hole to stick it in. In the end i chickened out bcos there was too much blood, and skipped swimming. after that i proudly exclaimed to any female that would listen, that I had successfully used a tampon.

I was (and still am) such a choice liar. haiz. 7 yrs later, that stash of tampons is sittin in my drawer, bcos i still dont noe how to use it. =(

ive been havin lots of nightmares recently. It's made sleep a pain, bcos i wake up screamin due to the intense fright or hittin my head on my wall. My dreams are crazy lor. I dream of things from death (choi choi) to breakin up with my moo and hitchin up with a loser and cryin (in the dream) bout it.

when i was very young i used to wet my bed when i had bad dreams. now i dont anymore... but sometimes they get so bad that i.... puke all over.

ok nite.

Say KYAHHHHHHH~